kitkat's thoughts

Friday, April 30, 2004

  I don't like Poki! Arrgghh ... stay away from my Cotton Candy!

Kat had a brain fart at 2:00 PM

kitkat's thoughts

Monday, April 26, 2004

  AHHHHH OMG!:o) I'm soooo happy. I've been so happy! About Cotton Candy anyways ... I hope we stay like this all the time. I haven't been sad. I don't know what happened but for the past few days I've been happy about the whole Cotton Candy situation. Nothing really has changed, I guess i'm finally getting over Cotton Candy.

Kat had a brain fart at 11:08 PM

kitkat's thoughts

Friday, April 23, 2004

  *sigh* I want Cotton Candy.

Yes, I'm trying to get over Cotton Candy but arrghh, it's too hard! I need to find a better way to get through this.

Kat had a brain fart at 8:30 PM

kitkat's thoughts

Thursday, April 22, 2004

  Had a great day! Went to Whistler with a friend for the Ski and Snowboard Festival. We saw Out Of Your Mouth and Gob perform. It was a long day and I'm really tired right now but it was sooo much fun:o)

Kat had a brain fart at 11:30 PM

kitkat's thoughts

Tuesday, April 20, 2004

  Why am I wanting what I can't have? I thought I was over Cotton Candy. We had a "talk" last night and it helped me a lot. But why am I feeling like this?

My bf left this morning:o( Yes, I was really sad. I feel like there's two of me. The good me with White Chocolate and the bad me chasing after Cotton Candy.

"I'm happy, I'm smiling, I'm feeling really good ... yeah, right!" :o(

Kat had a brain fart at 11:08 PM

kitkat's thoughts

Monday, April 19, 2004

  Cotton Candy is so unpredictable. Sometimes Cotton Candy is sweet but sometimes Cotton Candy is mean. I do like it when Cotton Candy is sweet but it's easier for me when Cotton Candy gives me an excuse to help me forget about my cravings. Oh Cotton Candy, where did you come from? Now I'm wanting what I can't have. *Sigh* I miss Cotton Candy! But wait ---> No, I don't ... No, I don't ... No, I don't ...

I watched 3 movies today:o) There was nothing really to do ... Oh and I got my hair cut again.

Rainbow was being an arse today. He still doesn't really know about White Chocolate vs. Cotton Candy and it upsets me because he makes me feel like I'm a really bad person. But hey, he makes out with his ex gf ... now that's bad:oP

aaarrrggggghhhhh ... *sigh*

Kat had a brain fart at 2:31 AM

kitkat's thoughts

Saturday, April 17, 2004

  ... *Sigh* ...

Kat had a brain fart at 1:19 AM

kitkat's thoughts

Thursday, April 15, 2004

  Sooo sleepy! I don't want to go to bed yet because it's too early:oP

Well, everything's going good right now:o) I've been so busy, no time for Cotton Candy but it's okay (I think). *Sigh*

Kat had a brain fart at 11:50 PM

kitkat's thoughts

Tuesday, April 13, 2004

  I'm okay ... I'm okay ... I'm okay ... NO I'M NOT!

Arrgghhh! It's happening again. Everything was fine ... then BOOM! Why me? I'm trying my hardest to be okay with this and I was doing great, I really was. Stupid cravings ... I don't wanna crave for Cotton Candy anymore:o( Cotton Candy is moving on just fine, why am I having a hard time? I'm not being selfish, I do want Cotton Candy to be happy but Cotton Candy is being blind right now. I'm trying to show Cotton Candy the way but I'm not getting through, it's like I'm not there.

Stupid Poki ... I don't like Poki. Poki can't have it both ways, that's not fair. Poki is playing my Cotton Candy .. ahhh back off!!! I know I can't really have Cotton Candy all to myself and I am willing to share Cotton Candy but I don't want to share Cotton Candy with just anybody. They have to like everything about Cotton Candy, not just because it looks good but I want them to like Cotton Candy as much (if not more) as I do! Kitkat is way better than Poki!

No more cravings ... please, no more. This is killing me!


Kat had a brain fart at 2:09 AM

kitkat's thoughts

Monday, April 12, 2004

  *Yawns* I'm so tired. I have to wake up early tomorrow (today) because I have to go to work. I don't wanna go to bed yet, though.

Celeste ... Get Yahoo messenger! I don't wanna go on MSN for now. I'm so ahhh right now. Cotton Candy has been acting weird lately and I don't know if it's just me. I'm trying to get over Cotton Candy but it's so hard and so far it's not working. Well, it helps when Cotton Candy is being difficult because that makes me upset and when I'm upset then I have a reason not to talk to Cotton Candy:oP *Sigh* I don't know what to do. I miss Cotton Candy!!! I don't like missing Cotton Candy, though. It's not fair ... it's so easy for Cotton Candy!

It's like a rollercoaster ride. He makes me happy ... He makes me sad ... He makes me laugh ... He makes me frown ... He cares ... He doesn't ... He says this ... He says that ... arrgghhh! Damn it! I think I'm the only one feeling so ahhh about this and that bugs me. Sometimes I think that we're in this together but sometimes it seems like it's just me. It's so unfair ... he throws anything at me and I'm okay but when the situation is reversed ... he's not okay. Who/What/How should I be? Who/What/How should YOU be? Just tell me!!! So many un-answered questions:o(

Ahhhh ... Celeste, where are you?!? I need you to smack me and make everything okay! *sigh*


Kat had a brain fart at 12:44 PM

kitkat's thoughts

Sunday, April 11, 2004

  I'm so tired! I had a great day yesterday:o) My friend Jason planned a BBQ/Party for me. His parent's place is HUGE! The back of their house is a park! I thought nobody was gonna show up because most of my friends work on saturdays but ... they called in sick! Awww, I'm special hehehe.

I was sooo mad yesterday morning. I ordered my cake on thursday and I told them exactly how I wanted my cake to look like. I went to pick up my cake yesterday and guess what ... they screwed up! I asked for a PINK cake and they made me a PURPLE cake! I was soo upset. How the F**k could somebody mess up like that? If I wanted a purple cake then I would've asked for a purple cake but NOOOO ... I asked for PINK! Arrrgghh! I didn't accept it, I ended up buying a different cake:o( It was yummy but still ...

So, yeah ... yesterday was a busy day for me! Had a b-day party and then I came back home to shower and then I met up with some more of my other friends and then we went to a place called "Cafe Crepes" for dessert. It was sooo embarrassing, somebody told them that it was my b-day so they had candles on my crepe and yes ... they did sing! The place was packed and everybody was looking at me, I was red! Hehehe Oh and ... I got me a tiara that says "Birthday Girl" on it ... yup, I was silly!

Rainbow got me sooo much stuff. I was so shocked. He got me pjs, candy, a shirt, and the Stroke's latest album ... I've always wanted to buy it but it's soo expensive and I don't like buying cds :oP Black Licorice got me soo much stuff, too ... Bath stuff, photo album, lip tint from clinique, and a cologne. My sister got me a yellow purse that I was sooo gonna buy but good thing I didn't! My other sister got me a gift certificate:o)

I had to wake up early for church today *yawns* My friends were inviting me to go boating with them but I had to spend time with my family. I had fun with my little cousins today... hehehe, they're so adorable!

Kat had a brain fart at 11:05 PM

kitkat's thoughts

Saturday, April 10, 2004



Kat had a brain fart at 12:00 AM

kitkat's thoughts

Wednesday, April 07, 2004

  Another boring day for me:oP My bf is coming up tomorrow and I'm excited!

Celeste sent me a song today and OMG ... it's the perfect song for us right now! *Sigh* I'm glad i'm not the only one having problems ... it's good that I can share my silly thoughts with Celeste hehehe. We're like little kids ... well, it's not our fault --> BOYS ARE STUPID! LOL

"I brush against the freckles and I hate it so,
but life goes on and I heave a little sigh for you.
It's heavy, the love that I would share with you,
then it dissolves like it was just a sugar cube.

Now the little pain sittin' in my heart
has shrunk in a bit, but it really does hurt me now.
Those silly horoscope signs,
Guess I can't trust them after all!

If we could get further away, (Ooooh...)
I wonder what it would be like...
I'd be so happy,
inside my heart!

Oh the memories I have are beautiful in my mind!
But they don't feed the hunger deep inside my soul.
And tonight I thought I'd be just sitting in my sorrow!
And now I must wonder why
'What did it really mean to you?'
I just can't see it anymore
I just can't see it anymore.....
Oh-o-a-a-h-h oh!"

--> Rurouni Kenshin


Kat had a brain fart at 12:02 AM

kitkat's thoughts

Tuesday, April 06, 2004

  AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH ... LOL ... I'm just so happy right now!:o) Don't ask me why ... I just am! Hmmmm, what's going on ... I was so down yesterday and now I'm so happy ... Lack of sleep?!?

Kat had a brain fart at 12:25 AM

kitkat's thoughts

Monday, April 05, 2004

  1:52 am:

Arrgghh! I'm so down ... what to do ... what to do :o(

Playing it cool is soooo unfair! It's probably for the best but damn ... this is NOT fun. Why is it so easy for you ... what's your secret?


I walked around downtown today and visited my favourite stores! I'm tired right now but I'm glad to say that I'm feeling good:o) I'm not feeling down anymore ... thank God for good stores and cupcakes LOL! I don't even remember why I was feeling down (me so silly)! It was just a phase and I'm glad it's over ... I think so anyways *sigh*

Anyways, Rainbow called me today. He said that his ex-gf got drunk the other day and she talked about me. She was going on and on about how "I" took Rainbow away from her ... I didn't! Rainbow broke up with her because she's f***ed up in the head. I'm not being mean but she's been mad at me from the start and I tried being friends with her but she was such a B***h to me. Rainbow got tired of her being sooo controlling and that's why they're not together anymore ... I had nothing to do with it. She's so sad ... we don't even talk so I don't know why she hates me so much.

My b-day is on Saturday and my bf is going to be up here:o) ... Finally! I haven't seen him since uhm ... last week of Feb. (I think).

Kat had a brain fart at 10:56 PM

kitkat's thoughts

Sunday, April 04, 2004

  Why me?!? Ahhh, My head is spinning ... I can't think ... *breathe in* *breathe out*

What is happening?!? I need answers! I was doing okay, everything was perfect. I had everything planned out. I wasn't looking for anything ... now I don't know what to do. Arrgghhh, I never asked for any of this! Where do I go from here?!?

Kat had a brain fart at 11:59 PM

kitkat's thoughts

Saturday, April 03, 2004

  I'm soo tired right now but I don't wanna go to bed yet. I've just been busy. Hmmm, I want bubble tea!!!

Skittles is still alive! Yup, I saw him yesterday:o) It was kinda sad because seeing him brought back memories. Celeste should've called him. Not much to say about White Chocolate vs. Cotton Candy, the problem still exists.

Help ... I need money! I need to buy more stuff that I don't need but want:o) I also need to get my own computer because my sister's = witches!


Kat had a brain fart at 12:44 AM

name: Kat
nick: kat, kaka
birthday: April 10, 1983
location: in front of my computer
things i want: blue skittles

i like: stalking blue skittles

i don't like: boring ppl who only talk about themselves ^_~

i also like: setting cel up with guys against her will

i miss: nothing, no time to look to the past ^_^

i don't like: anything healthy

music i like: the strokes, cold play, maroon 5

movies i like: anything with hugh grant in it

video games i like: soul caliber

Peley's thoughts ^_^

first off, let me just say that her to pick a color i seriously didn't think she say pink! (though i really should have known beter) let me just state for the record that i HATE the color pink! so i conprimised and went with purple.

... oh, and as for me not doing anything silly. i always do "silly" things ^__^

  • peley's blog (she's the smartest person i know ^_^)


    March 2004 / April 2004 / May 2004 / June 2004 / July 2004 /

    © Pel

    Powered by Blogger